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Sunday, March 9, 2008

Fuck

I give a new meaning to the word stupid... just when you take the most important result that determines your future you screw it up... what more can i say... i felt damn dumb when everyone in my class, and i mean everyone, did much much better den me... "oh what did you get?" "oh ok la, AAABB, you?" "wow you're so pro, i very lousy, i only got AABBB" "so joel what did you get?" (out of my mouth) "er ok la..." (in my head) "fuck off"

Actually i meant to not care so much about my A level results, but seeing so many ppl around me getting such good results made me feel very inferior... im not sure depression would be the appropriate word, but i definetely felt dejected and gloomy for the past 2 days...

I spent alot of time stoning and staring into blank space, and sometimes even staring at my result slip a few hours at one go (as if by staring the results would change)...

Life sucks sometimes



5:30 AM

JOEL the lunatic (: